Today

My head hurts.I hurt.
My Auntie is dead and buried.
My brothers have spoken their piece and left, as usual.
My school projects are ALL finished, and I have two final exams next week.
My laundry needs DOing, and I'm hungry.

I am not an intense curiosity, nor an acquaintance, nor a convenience to be experienced for entertainment. I am a dreadful inconvenience, because I am a real, 3-dimensional person. I require and I enrich. I give AND I take. I do give 150%. That's what it's all about. Saying "I can't" simply doesn't cut it with me. Saying "I'll try" simply doesn't cut it - that's a complete cop out and truly means "I'll placate you with meaningless words and put out no effort whatsoever." I was raised to say "I can" and "I will." Then, only say it when you really mean it, when you really intend to BE THERE.

I do say "I won't" from time to time.

I won't be limited, especially not by ME.
I won't be ignored.
I won't give up, give in, give out, or give nothing.
I won't waste one second of this life - not any more.

With great power comes great responsibility.

When one is priveledged beyond belief, innately intelligent, educated, cultured, loved, and nurtured (as I am - as anyone reading this blog is), one MUST give. "To whom much is given, much is required."

I'm done.

Procrastinator Extraordinaire

Yes. I've done everything I can possibly do to wait until 10 hours and 51 minutes before class time to write this paper. Well, I have much of the drafting done, I have the order together in web form and I'm on page 3 (of probably 10 or so pages total), but I'm really putting this off.

No MORE! I've drunk a Monster Energy Drink, I've worked out (weights AND cardio), I've chatted with a girlfriend about men, I've played with the kids, I've eaten take-out Chinese for supper, I've been to the art show downtown AGAIN ( where I saw hunkey Mexico City men dressed in traditional Aztec costume performing Aztec dancing WHOOOOOOO! chhhhhhhhhOT!), I've been to see my dying Auntie in the hospital, I've sat and chatted with Mom and Dad and worked part of the crossword puzzle, and I've sipped coffee. I even took a soaking bath when I got dressed for the day. REAL procrastination.

Now that I'm home, sitting down at the computer, all resources gathered and right here in front of me, I think I'll change clothes!

I'm the queen of procrastination!

Happy Valentine's Day!

My Funny Valentine

Words and Music by R. Rodgers and L. Hart


My funny valentine;
Sweet, comic valentine;
You make me smile with my heart.

Your looks are laughable;
Unphotographable;
Yet, you're my favorite work of art.

Is your figure - less than Greek?
Is your mouth - a little weak?
When you open it to speak, are you smart?

Don't change a hair for me;
Not if you care for me;
Stay, little valentine, stay!

Each day is valentine's day.