Today

My head hurts.I hurt.
My Auntie is dead and buried.
My brothers have spoken their piece and left, as usual.
My school projects are ALL finished, and I have two final exams next week.
My laundry needs DOing, and I'm hungry.

I am not an intense curiosity, nor an acquaintance, nor a convenience to be experienced for entertainment. I am a dreadful inconvenience, because I am a real, 3-dimensional person. I require and I enrich. I give AND I take. I do give 150%. That's what it's all about. Saying "I can't" simply doesn't cut it with me. Saying "I'll try" simply doesn't cut it - that's a complete cop out and truly means "I'll placate you with meaningless words and put out no effort whatsoever." I was raised to say "I can" and "I will." Then, only say it when you really mean it, when you really intend to BE THERE.

I do say "I won't" from time to time.

I won't be limited, especially not by ME.
I won't be ignored.
I won't give up, give in, give out, or give nothing.
I won't waste one second of this life - not any more.

With great power comes great responsibility.

When one is priveledged beyond belief, innately intelligent, educated, cultured, loved, and nurtured (as I am - as anyone reading this blog is), one MUST give. "To whom much is given, much is required."

I'm done.